When my father was with us, it was the most beautiful part of my life. We used to do everything together, but now he’s gone and I usually write to him. I know it’s stupid, but I can’t find a way to talk to him. So, I capture my words and hide them in my diary. This is a letter I wrote for him, back in August:
“Hey, Dad! It’s your birthday today. I remember that once we forgot your birthday and when you came home you were like, “Don’t you guys remember my birthday?” With a slightly angry expression. We never forgot your birthday after that. And now we can never forget anything about you. Maybe a few things are kinda fading away with time but I hope they’ll never be gone because I only have these memories left with me. Dad, do you know that your little girl is all grown up? She’s an adult now. You obviously know that because you always remembered our birthdays. I’m 18 years old now and soon I’ll turn 19. But by the time I’m growing up, I need you even more than before. I used to think that it’s hard for kids to live without a father but they’re only kids they don’t even remember anything. They just keep on playing all the time and life is much easier when you’re a kid. And then you grow up. You start facing all the difficulties in life and that’s when a girl needs her father the most. When society starts telling them that girls shouldn’t walk out of their houses, that’s when a girl needs her father’s support. To let the society know that our father always has our back. As you grow older, you start realising the importance of a father. That one person whose absence can make a huge difference. If someone doesn’t have a father, people think that they’re dependent on their relatives or somebody else. But Dad, you left much for us to live the lives we were living when you were with us. I’m in university now and sorry but I’m not a too good student. Just an average student I am I guess but you know I was never too good in exams. Do you know that I’m taller than mama now? If you were here, we would take lots and lots of pictures together and I know you would have been my selfie partner. Because I love you so much and I know that you loved me the most. I have a few of your things in my drawer which I use sometimes when I miss you. I have your badge, your wrist watch, your necklace, your Ray-Ban, that kitty you bought for me and that storybook too. Remember we used to watch every cricket match together and you taught me many things relating matches. I don’t watch them now. And you used to watch cartoons with me. I miss you so much, dad. I miss your hugs, your morning kisses, playing games with you, eating just food with you and you used to say “Don’t tell mama”. I miss that who hugs more tightly game. I miss each and everything about you. I miss your face, your voice, your scent. I miss tying your shoes, putting on your cufflinks and giving you your hair oil. I miss your jokes. I miss your smile. I miss you sitting right here on this bed by my side watching a sports channel. I wish I could bring you back for 10 minutes, hug you tight, say I love you and kiss you one last time. I love you, Dad. Happy Birthday. Stay happy in a far better place than this world.
-Your Little Girl”
Cherish your fathers while you still have them or else you’ll regret that when they’ll be gone and no one knows when that time will come. It could all happen in just a blink of an eye. So don’t even waste a single moment. Spend time with your Dad. Make him feel special. At least do something which you’ll remember and smile at in future because these moments will never come back when he’ll be gone and trust me you don’t want him to leave, ever. He’s your father, your friend, your protector, your bodyguard, your first love, your superman and most of all your inspiration. The person you always want by your side to protect you from all the evils in this world.